Memories for the Grandkids

I decided I want to make something for my youngest grandchildren to remember me by. I am going to crochet something for both of them. I spent the last week preparing. Found all my books, needles and yarn (not using since most of it is over 30 years old). Purchased at least $100 dollars in more supplies (you just never know), and have more on the way. This has to be the dumbest thing I have done in my life (besides my second marriage). I've spent the last 3 days trying to figure out the pattern, getting the best ergonomic hook, and trying to crochet. I'll bet it's been 30 years since I've done this. My hands don't seem to want to comply. I'd love to video tape this for you, but all you would hear is me laughing. Later I'd be crying and cursing. But I am determined. FOR THE CHILDREN. Plus I've got too much money invested in this. I want to have a real good explanation for Chuck when he wonders why we are having beans every night for dinner next week. IT'S FOR THE KIDS. I CAN'T LET THEM DOWN.